Bipolar Disabled Mom Seeks Help To Pay Medications And Clear Debt
by Holly
(Springvale, ME, USA)
My Boys
I am a single mom of two grown children. I have suffered with bipolar and PTSD all my life.
When I was eight, my three-year-old brother was abducted. We never saw him again. There is still no closure.
My father had a problem with me being overweight and made it known to me every way he could.
I went on to marry a very abusive man. He was an alcoholic and drug abuser and I was the punching bag.
I heard countless times from him that I was going to die. I ran with my children to another state after years of this.
I have worked many jobs trying to support us with these disorders while raising two boys. I am now 47 and broken mentally and physically.
I believe my disabilities began when I was eight and suffered the loss of my brother.
The divorce of my parents and remarriage of both added to it. I was becoming more and more introverted.
I was immediately moved to a state far away from home where I knew no one. I had no social skills due to my disabilities that no one seemed to notice.
I grew, married, was abused.
This all contributed to non-functioning being that I was rapidly becoming. I drew the courage to run with my children.
I worked several jobs. They all ended the same way. I blame it on my lack of social skills due to my disabilities.
I have just been awarded Social Security Disability to the tune of $948 a month.
Due to my bipolar condition I need a car for doctor appointments. I bought one and still owe around $3000 on it. I cannot afford the payments on $948 a month.
I have a $700 a month rent bill.
I must go to counseling, a psychiatrist, a pain specialist and a neurosurgeon each month and have no health insurance.
I have a compressed nerve in my back and have had back surgery that I was just informed will probably never heal.
My prescriptions alone cost well into the hundreds.
I have an old student loan from years ago of around $8000. I studied to get into the healthcare field with the promise of a great income. I could not find a job in the field of medical billing and coding.
I now owe my bank an unknown amount of money due to the fact that I was the victim of crime recently.
I received a cashier's check from a real bank and a real company. I deposited it into my savings account, the funds became available and I used some to pay some household bills.
A week later I cannot access my accounts and am told that my account have been closed due to the check being fake.
I have worked at all jobs I could over the past 29 years, sometimes two or three at a time to ensure my children did not go without, even though I often did.
I moved to another state where the cost of living was lower and worked a full-time job begging for any overtime I could get.
I went to school to be able to get into the healthcare field and was left with no job and a big bill.
I have gone to the town for assistance with rent.
I have gone to the church for help and was told no. I have applied several times for SSDI.
I was just awarded Disability Benefits of $948 a month, which will not be enough to live on.
I was told I do not qualify for SSI.
I was let go from last two jobs at the same time because I needed time off due to my disability.
I need help in paying off my debt: student loan, car and bank. I need help in paying for my medications and doctor expenditures.
I cannot afford food for myself or my pets at this time. I do not know where to turn.