47 Year Old Grandmother With Multiple Disabilities Feels 90 And Seeks Help
by Diann Graham
(Jacksonville, Arkansas, USA)
I am a 47-year-old woman who has diabetes along with back problems. I cannot work and as far as I know do not qualify for any programs that will assist me.
In 1996, I got hurt at work and got a payoff from the insurance company to go away. I filed for SSI but was turned down and said to be morbidly obese. I am 5'10" and I weighed 200 lbs.
I tried working but really can't due to the L4/L5 disk issues, since then that disk has caused another disk issue in my mid back and in my neck.
Since I have no insurance or money I have to live with this pain I am in, which hinders my life a lot more than I let on.
In 2005 it was found out that I have diabetes, which is miserable. I no longer have medicine and I'm not able to see a doctor. I do what I can to get by.
I am virtually a shut-in because I hurt so much. I have issues standing, sitting, sleeping, lying, walking and even more things I cannot think of as I write this.
I also have breast density disease and I am supposed to have mammograms every six months to monitor it, but I cannot.
I am sure I have other medical issues that are not known since it's been over a year since I've seen a doctor. Just with the diabetes alone, Lord knows what is going on inside me.
I look for ways to figure out what I am supposed to do with my life, but with all the pain I am in, I am so limited to what I can do.
I often wonder how am I going to make it another year like this and if I even want to (not suicidal, just wonder how to get help so I am not in all this pain).
I have nine grandchildren and one on the way. I feel 90, not 47, and I want to play, go places, do things with them, but I am so limited.
Is there any help out there for me?