41 Year Old Disabled Female Seeks Help To Build A Future

by Dianne J. Doran
(Hopewell, PA, USA)

I am 41 and female and not as resilient as I once was or I would not be here telling you my story.

I would be much more arrogant I imagine if I was not beat down to my proper perspective. Again, I'm feeling all the horror and anger I always do when I can’t figure things out.

I really don’t have the guts to go back too far. I have decided I will tell enough to expose myself in ways that are making me uncomfortable.

It's not because I'm ashamed of myself, but rather because I'm protective. I'm a new writer who intends to give a lot of interesting stories to the world in time.

So I'm nervous. Besides not having a pot or a window to throw it out of I am concerned. I am the sanative type and also a bit tenacious.

I got fired from two jobs in one month. I attempted waitressing in a small town where I did not grow up in.

I'm confident in what I know. I treat others the way I want to be treated. I'm not too proud to ask questions.

My main objective is to do the thing I love to do for free and maybe I'll get lucky enough that someone will pay me for it.

Other women do not intimidate me. Need I say more? All of my tenacious loved ways are fine with friends and family.

I am the same everywhere. I do not know how to be phony and I don’t care if someone is or if they don’t like me. People have real problems to deal with.

They think I'm nuts. What's wrong? I'm leaving my boyfriend whom I love deeply. Having all the burden of the finances is making him bitter. He has real issues.

My family and friends have scurried under rocks. His mother, with whom we live, told me cheerfully I must go by Friday. She is delighted. I make her skin crawl.

I work to love. I work to give. Mostly all I do is for free and now I am asking for help. I do take medications. I have mania. I'm an artist. It goes with territory.

When I'm helped and feeling better, I will put my name out there and any information and resources I find.

I implore you to help with some funds to get on my feet. I'm a writer, but not an English major or editor.

I'm tired and a bit discouraged. Money won't solve all my problems, but it will help improve my situation.

Thank you, I send good intentions to all. Love yourself. Don’t love things too much.

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