34 Year Old Disabled Man Seeks Grant Money For Second Chance And Debt Relief

by Quentin Tracy
(West Melbourne, Florida, USA)

I am 34 years old, a young man with an old aged body and mind... I had my first surgery on my stomach when I was 18 years old.

I had been diagnosed with Pyka, a disease that made me eat foreign objects i.e. razors, pencils, pens, paper clips, spoons, knives and others that need not be mentioned. You get my point (no pun intended.)

The hospital in Madison Wisconsin had to perform an operation to remove a paperclip I had swallowed which had punctured my insides. Since then I have had 5 more serious surgeries to repair my body because of a disease in my mind.

Two years ago was my last surgery, which was to put my intestines back into my stomach. For the previous 10 months they had been outside in what they called a "Fistula."

This was caused when I did a Japanese warrior style suicide attempt by stabbing myself with a long metal tubing from a TV in desperation to end my life and to end the physical and mental torture I put myself through in the last 12 or more years.

When I was six years old I was left to babysit my brother and sister on the farm we lived on. I accidentally started a fire and I lost Ezekiel and Crystal that day to that fire.

I suffered from that guilt and the guilt that my mother made me feel when she abandoned me and left with a wealthy business owner when I was 11. It was then that I started my journey through hell.

I went through institution to the next hospital to the next institution all the way till four years ago when I knew that I had to change my life and that it started with me.

My daughter Makayla was born and I accepted my punishment for a crime I had done in the past and I wanted out of my past, because Makayla needed a father like I needed one when I was young.

After doing two years in the state pen I was informed that I was not to have contact with Makayla and her mother or any of the family because I was a danger to them because of all the harm I did to myself in the past.

This is where I tried to commit suicide and ended up in a hospital bed for 10 months. But I don't want to die anymore and I am trying to live with my full disability mental and physical without doing what I was taught in the criminal system as a youth and stealing.

I have gotten in trouble three times for this stealing. I am currently on probation for one year for the last one where I had to come up with more bill money and the only way I knew was reverting to my old habits to fill a current need.

Now I am afraid because we are getting further and further in debt and having trouble with keeping the utilities going. I don't have the skills in the free world to earn money I need to pay these outstanding bills that are accumulating.

We had to sell our truck last year to pay the rest of our rent and have been living on the outskirts of town without much transportation to get to the doctors or anywhere at that.

I need help and will listen and talk to ANYONE who has an idea. God Bless